(DISCLAIMER: If you consider the word "crap" to be profanity, then this post is not for you.)
This is a first for me. I don’t have a particular topic to discuss or an idea that I want to share. I just want to talk.

I watched the Beth Moore talk from Passion 2010 today. (Yes Chris. I know…I should have seen in a month ago. You can call me out on that now.) Let me tell you why I love Beth. She is real. She has been through some crap and she knows that she is where she is today because of that crap and she gives God all the Glory for it.

This is what she said that really got my attention. (I am going to quote it because this is so profound that even though I don’t have the exact words, the idea itself should be credited to Beth. I am not this good even on my best of days.)


Here is the thing: I have been through some crap, too. Stuff that I haven’t even talked about on this blog yet. But I love how Beth reminded me that NOTHING happens outside of God’s will and that He will use it for His good. That crap. That crap that I have been through can be used for His good.

It amazes me sometimes. That the worst moments of my life. The things that I would like to re-do…the things that I would like to erase….these are the things that will set me apart from other people. But in a good way. It makes me real. And relatable. It makes me relevant.

Only God can do that. I am quite thankful that all of that crap happened to me. I am also thankful because I am sure that there will be more crap in the future. Whatever happens, I know that if God will allow it, then He will have a reason for it.

So let’s just be honest for a minute. I am sure that when the crap hits the fan, I will forget that it will end well. I will probably be mad and I might even talk to God as if He were against me.

Which in itself is crazy. He is in us and He is for us and He is with us.

What a relief.

Have you ever thought about the number of people who live on our planet right now? I think it’s close to 4 billion people. If you can wrap your brain around that number, then think about the number of people who have lived on this planet since Adam and Eve were created. Whatever number that is, I CANNOT wrap my brain around it and I doubt you can either.

Now if you can possibly imagine that all of those people who ever lived were created with a purpose in mind. God knew who I was going to be when He laid the foundations of the Earth. He also knew who all the other billions of people were going to be. He created each individual for a purpose. He gave each of us a ministry.

I want to know what my ministry is and I want to fulfill it to His standards (like that is possible) (I am laughing at myself right now for even saying that out loud) (since I said that, I will probably fail miserably at my ministry) (why did I even say that?).

I think He must not be done with me…and that is both terrifying and exhilarating at the same time.

Thanks for listening to me ramble. All of this might be old-news to you but I am still trying to understand how He can get ANY good out my mistakes. It is baffling. But I love Him and thank Him everyday for it.