Wednesday, October 12, 2011

The Ugly Truth

It mocks me every day as I am getting dressed.

I know it's there although I try to ignore it.
Over the weeks, it's taunts have gotten louder and louder until...

I must do something about it.
What is this evil thing that torments me day in and day out?

It's my box of pre-maternity clothes.  And it is driving me insane.

So here I am, sharing the ugly truth:  I need to lose some baby weight.  I'm not sure what happened.  Somewhere between the pregnancy test and the delivery room I lost all of my will-power.  Red velvet became my best friend.  Chik-fil-A was about the only thing I could stomach for a long time because of morning sickness.  The result?

45 pounds.  Ahem...I said it.  45 pounds.

YIKES!!!!

I used to be THAT girl.  You know the girl who ate healthy and worked out like a crazy woman.  Heck, I could do pull ups like a man before I got pregnant.  And now?  My doughy body hangs on the bar just begging me to quit and find some ice cream.

In all fairness, I have lost a lot of the weight I gained.  I only have 12 more pounds to go.  But I have to be honest, I didn't do anything to lose that weight...it just melted off.

So here I am...putting it out there for the world to see.  I need you to be my witnesses and my form of accountability.

I have signed up for Weight Watchers.  Dang it!  I am counting points, baby.
I have quit drinking Diet Coke.  No more glasses of wine, either.
I have started CrossFit again...even though I am always the last one to finish.

Maybe if I am brave enough I will take a before picture and post it here.  Maybe not...hehe.

This is for real and I am in it to LOSE IT!!!  My goal is actually to lose 20 pounds.  I would like to weigh less than what I weighed when I got pregnant with Reese.  That would put me at a healthy weight for my height and body type.  The people at Weight Watchers agree that is an acceptable goal.

So, watch out you evil box of pre-maternity clothes.  I will win.  I will wear your size sixes and yes, even your size fours.  And I will look good and feel good!

There..I've said it.  I've written it.  Now I just have to DO IT!


My Alabaster Jar

8 comments:

  1. *hug* boy am I feeling this way too. It is so frustrating to go to my closet and have nothing that fits. I cry almost daily over wardrobe issues *sigh* We can do this Erin!!! I'm praying for you and setting my eyes on a goal as well.

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  2. Hi Erin,
    Thankful for your boldness and willingness to be open here about some of your challenges. It is always encouraging to me to see someone humble themselves before others and admit where they can improve. Lord knows, we all can, and always will be able to improve for His Glory :)

    Wanted to mainly post to mention a few films that you might consider watching. These changed the way I eat. I have been full plant-based/whole foods vegan now for more than 30 days, and I would have never thought I could give up meat and meat by-products. From what I have gathered recently, Plant-based, Whole, non-processed foods are what is healthiest. Rick Warren has a plan he developed titled "The Daniel Diet" that is similar to this. Might be worth checking out.

    The movies to check out, all on Netflix streaming:
    1) Fat, Sick, and Nearly dead
    2) Forks over Knives
    3) Food, Inc.
    4) The Beautiful Truth

    These are all documentary type films. I learned so much by watching them that my life will be forever changed.

    I wish you well with your continued efforts here. I am confident that you and your family will reap immediate and long term rewards for your diligence, persistence, and patience as you continue to grow in this, and every other area the Lord leads you :)

    Blessings, prayers, and much LOVE to you and your family.

    For JESUS,
    jsk

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  3. It has been two years since I quit smoking and I have gained 25 pounds so i'm jumping on board with you on the weight loss train. Way to go for putting it out there... Every time you walk by that box, kick it. :)

    xx
    Reese

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  4. I totally understand. My baby is almost 8 months old and I still have 20 pounds that I would like to lose!! The baby weight is mostly gone, but like you said, it's not like you have to do much to get rid of that (other than basically be a mom, which is a great workout all on it's own sometimes!), but I'm determined that 2012 is the year to get back to a normal, healthy, happy weight (and a box of clothes that haven't fit in 6 years/thru 3 kids)!!

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  5. We must have had our moments around the same time. I have 50 to lose and I started Weight Watchers 2 weeks ago. Thanks for your encouragement. We can do this!

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  6. I lost 26 for my wedding, but I don't want to stop! While I'm not doing WW, I do love the principles from there so I've adopted some of the mindsets into my 'just eat healthier and MOVE dummy' weight loss plan. :-)

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  7. Just found your blog, Erin - love it. :-) Love you! And girl - 45 pounds is nothing! I gained 80 with Jacob (my oldest) and 65 with both of my girls. Oh. Em. GEEEEE. ;-) So I hear you. I feel your pain. I can't explain how it happened or why... my body is just programmed to be large and in charge when pregnant. I'm sure my obsession with Bojangles chicken strips didn't help. Luckily for me a lot of it came off without work like yours did (I LOVE BREASTFEEDING), but I too struggled with the last 10 or so. I occasionally will eat like I am pregnant and have to struggle with that same 10 pounds again. :-) You can do it! I bet you're already doing it. Go girl.

    Beth

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