Thursday, January 3, 2013

4.5 Days Later

On Sunday, I posted something that wasn't easy to post.

And I feel better for saying it and for sticking with it.  

I know, it's only been like 4.5 days, but still...

The last drink I had was Saturday night.  Since then, I've been clear-headed and productive and happy.

I'm not going to lie...the first night I was all like, "Oh.my.goodness....what am I going to drink???"  Water is boring.  I needed something else and I didn't have anything else.  That was really the hardest part so far.  

So, Mark made some tea and I actually like it unsweetened.

Stop my Southern heart.  I like unsweetened tea?  Who knew? 

But when I need something frilly, I also have Perrier and other flavored sparkling waters.  They are fancy and yummy and just what I need in those moments.

Everything is good, well, except for that twitch in my left eye.  For real.  Like every other minute it twitches.

But other than that, everything is good.

I'm ready to see where God takes me.  I'm ready to see what He does with this heart and all that space that I was guarding so ferociously.

This girl is ready. 



Picture by Ashley

 My cousin sent me scripture the other day.  I'm not sure that she even knows about all of this that's going on.  Mostly, I tell people about my decision (ummmm....or God's decision FOR me?) face-to-face and through my blog.  Duh...because doesn't everyone communicate these days via a blog?  Anyway, she sent me a scripture that said:

Many are the plans in a person’s heart,
    but it is the Lord’s purpose that prevails.
(Proverbs 19:21)

I laughed.

If you know me in real life you know why I laughed.

I laughed because no matter how I run or ignore God, HIS plans always prevail in my life.  I have all these plans and thoughts and ideas (and justifications).  He just sits back and watches me spin my wheels and then He picks me up out of the mud and sets me back on His path.

Every time.

I almost took down that blog post.  I'm not really good at admitting when I have a problem.  I like being the one who has it all together in a nifty little box with  pretty wrapping paper.  And cute shoes.  

Always cute shoes.

But that completely goes against what it means to be a Christian.  There is nothing good about me except Christ in me.  Not even cute shoes.

I need to learn to lean more on Him and less on me.

One day at a time.  




Picture by Ashley

For His Glory.

My Alabaster Jar

3 comments:

  1. I love that scripture and just keep counting those days half days at a time....or minute by minute if need be!

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  2. Yay for a pic of you in FRONT of the camera. :) so good to see your beautiful face! <3 Also, so proud of you! 4.5 days is 4.5 days that God has helped you ;) love you!

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  3. Every "fleshly" moment you share touches me in the deepest parts of my heart, because a long time ago God started sewing the heartstrings of our hearts together. No matter the years that did or the miles that do separate us, we will always be woven together by God's love. I love you friend and think about you very often. :) Love you.

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